Who is the person you’re beating with now?


Ini dia hasil tes TOEFL minggu lalu…

Obviously, skor saya menurun… tidak drastis memang, hanya 6 poin dari skor terakhir saya di tahun 2009, 3 tahun yang lalu.

Apa reaksi saya tadi pagi sewaktu melihat hasil tes ini dipasang di papan pengumuman?

  1. Saya merasa kecewa >> Yah, ternyata hasilnya tidak lebih bagus dari yang sebelumnya😦
  2. Saya senang >> Yap yap! Hasil tes ini lebih dari batas minimum yang ditetapkan sebagai syarat administrasi🙂
  3. Saya senang dobel karena dari 40 peserta tes hari itu, skor sayalah yang tertinggi!😀

 

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So what it’s all about?

I’m perfectionist. Mostly, I’m competing with my self.  When people says I’m great, I’d like to say that I’m not good enough.

Often putting high standard for my self and ignoring what people says. Yes, I’m beating my self through these years!

Ooo come ooooon!!

I should learn how to love my self huh?

Just like what I did this morning.

Yet being disappointed about having lower score, I choose to become excited having highest score in the class. That was saving my day. I feel happy till now, avoiding myself to feel bitter about thing that isn’t exactly a big matter.

Fight negative things with positive ones, rite?

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We’re beating our self in almost our entire life. That’s common. But we should take over the control. The key is: knowing more about who you really are.

 

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